happy belated 15th birthday to my dear junior in band
- elena (:


happy 20th birthday to my brother
- derrickaw!!



a short little entry for tonight/morning.
donuts for brunch with royson and nicole.
a month more to royson's enlistment, like wtf can.
how am i going to live without the jokes and everything of roysonEE.
mygod.
imagine all these 6 years, you always have such a good companion by your side, regardless of your up and downfalls, he is along there with you. & 1 month before he enlist, he tells you, bestfriend, i am booking in on 18july.
OMGGGGGGGGGGG, roysonEE i am sure that i miss you man and like hell!


just came back from the 2nd day of band camp.
i did not stay in.
tomorrow is another round of rehearsal at nanyang girls.
10 more days to concert!
(: (: (:
and woots!
the tickets are selling quite fast according to eewen ; hot cross buns..
dont ask me why.
the thought of the good sale tickets remind me of selling like hot cross buns!
(: (: (:



i felt so lost tonight or maybe since yesterday or maybe since friday.
oh ya, no one need to even remind me, ya since friday`
friday ; my birthday.
lost.


someone sms-ed me tonight.
oh well, he is rather a good friend to talk to.
but he is still not of the capability for me to pour all my sorrows to, unlike to you.
somehow, somewhat, he is a friend that you disliked me to talk about most.



i made a little clarification with a good/close friend of ours a few nights ago.
close ; someone whom i used to share my sad stories with.
close ; someone who craps with you in the past and now.
good ; someone you always joke around with.
good ; you two are just like a pair of twin brothers that joke and lift the spirits up.
(:

and he said this to me,
he is like that, that's his personality. that's _ for your info.
i start to wonder how much i know you and how much i dont.



many people protrays us - good and close friends or somehow the more advance one too.
that's in their eyes about us.
but what are we then and now?



i remembered the times we shared.
the nights we were together.
the long and late hour phonechat.
the listening ear you never fail to lend me.
the hundred and thousands of messages.
the favourite things we did.
the jokes we shared.
are all gone now.


someone said something that day,
it just comes back to me that we were once like that too, once.
used to but not now.


i skipped father's day dinner with grandpa and family that sunday.
i didnt meant to, but i just sick and tired of the long waiting at the foodplace and the not-very-nice food.
and something spurred upon me then.
a month ago, we were still doing perfectly fine.
we were bubbly chatting and laughing through out the night.
but turned it around, we arent doing so now.



even sharing and doing our favourite thing together seems so different now.
no chemistry i suppose.
i felt so far from you.
now the sentence so near yet so far really applied on us both.
but 3 months ago, it was so far yet so near.
you really make me feel as if i was back in singapore by your side while i was chatting with you online in suzhou.
you make me feel so.



i just miss our late night chats, our strings of sms-es and the chemistry we lacked.
come to think of it, i had eventually prepared this day will come.
cus you are just a passerby in my life, so was i, since the day i know you.
i wasnt suppose to be in there at all. i am suppose to be with my other friends and not you and someone else.
if not for that afternoon, i wont be here blogging about us now.
whatever.



what's the point of missing you now when you arent thinking of me anymore.?



alright,
time to get to bed.
i can wake up like darn late tomorrow can!
meeting the old girls and guys 5pm at newton mrt.